Ashes of Love: Song of a Man

Monday, October 17, 2011

Song of a Man

Within the boundaries of a "happy" relationship exist multiple stories of compromise, of giving up the vitality of your life..a friend is an inspiration of this poem..Its a song that has lately flickered off my conscience too..

Baby o' baby, what do you think of me?

Am I your slave, or I am your enemy?

or I am your pet lord, born to fulfill your wish

with no verve of my own, all my yearnings foolish!

I might have lost some battles, for show,

might have given you the space you know..

but little does it mean for the outer world to see,

I still am the man, I always used to be!

I feel like a fleet of ships blocking your horizon,

Or the waves, unfolded, extinguishing your cauldron.

I feel like an entity, you can any day ask to leave,

without elan within me, and you ready to bereave!

..but my love remains, and I am not your enemy,

nor am I your slave, never will you get used to me,

I shall remain your companion, sharing your smiles,

your love of life, ready to walk all the miles,

Leave my freedom love, its not for you to peruse,

Its a gift of lord, bound in the mortal noose.

When I will die, I shall give it up once and for all,

Till then I request you to keep your ideas apart!

No, I am not, not the pet that your aspired for,

perhaps, not the good lord, nor am I the mythical thor,

I am not an entity, and there is nothing you'd cleave,

believe me love even I can ask you to leave..

Poem Definition: 16 Oct 2011

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The love story of an author is grossly underrated, it appears that authors fall in love to invoke poetry, but the feelings are 'real' and that does not always work in favor of the author.

One such story is the story of Amrita Pritam and Sahir Ludhiyanvi, it was pure in the moral sense, yet it tends to symbolize an intensity that has rarely been seen.

Amrita once wrote:

There was a pain, I inhaled it
Quietly
Like a cigarette, Left behind are a few songs
I have flickered off, Like ashes
From the cigarette...!

What I present before you are the ashes that were left behind..from my own story.

About this space

The songs are dedicated to but one muse, but the co-relation between the songs and the times they've been written in, is anything but co-incidental. She walked into my life as an inspiration, as someone who over-whelmed me with her warmth, and the "Ruler of my soul" came down to me..on my 25th Birthday; early in the morning I asked the Lord of light to make me meet her, invoking the song,
A month passed and we were at a new low in our relationship, there was something that appeared like a pause, a well deserved break, an inevitable trough in the waveform, but did I lose hope? Well I did lose temper, but not hope and once I saw her smiling face, once I came physically close to her again, the anger eloped, and came down the song "Symbols", symbolic of the symbols that exist in love and life.
Life was music for a while, "you bring too much happiness to my life", I distinctly remember telling her.
Then came the second low,and I was lost this time, perhaps forever, unable to get up in the mornings, unable to sleep during nights, I had lost hope, and eventually my immune system took on itself the responsibility of taking care of my psychological health.
"I am divine" was one such motivation that came out of the deepest core of my soul, and helped me survive with a flame in my eyes and bright smile of my face.
But the healing was never complete I realized, though the intentions were always good, and thus came "cages", the song had wings,it had words,it was a flight onto itself, a poem which invoked my deepest wishes, and I knew I still loved the sound of her coming to me, but there were things beyond me, and I had to accept them.
"Song of a Man" marks the end of the series, inspired by a true story, lived by a friend its a song that comes and lingers onto a lover's conscience when things appear to be difficult, and hopeless.
Ashes was not a story, it wasn't meant to be one, but somehow its lead and its destination mark the start and end of a chapter, one of the most beautiful times of life for me..and I'd cherish the memories forever!